I waited a long, long time to have a Valentine. 23 years, minus that one year in the 7th grade when Leland Tebo was my boyfriend. The chocolate rose he gave me broke, and I could barely dance one slow song with him, before I ran away to the bathroom to freak out.
I’ve come a long way since then, I have. I think.
Today, I am in love. With two people actually. I’m first and foremost, madly in love with my Jesus - He is the one who truly has my heart, and makes everyday worth living. He has my love forever and ever. The second is the love of my life, Tyler. He is it, I swear. Loves me when I least deserve it, want it, or even crave it. He makes me smile by his incredible humor, and his smile makes my heart skip beats - it’s true! I can’t wait to marry this man, and spend the rest of my life with him - him with faults, and flaws, and scars, and wounds - with me - complete with faults, and flaws, and scars, and wounds. I love him when he dances with me in front of 50 people, and I love him when it’s just him and I playing board games at a diner. He has proved to be secure, and steady, and is a rock in my tower. I look forward to Saturday’s spent with him, and I will love him forever, and always.
Today, we are spending this holiday apart because of work, and school, and work. But, Saturday, we will be together, and I can’t wait :)
I guess I’m writing all this, because I remember being single last year, and so frustrated with the season. I had a similar feeling that I have today. That feeling that man’s love will never, ever compare to the outlandish love of Christ. It’s HIS love that keeps me going, day in, day out. I crave His the most out of all the attention and affection I receive.
Give yourself to Christ’s love, fully, my friend. Give yourself to His lavishing affections over you. He is so delighted in you, and the grace He gives to you, just like His mercies, are new every morning. You are clothed in strength, and can get through any season, knowing, and walking in this truth.
His love never fails.